A new friend recently told me that instead of worrying I should focus on gratitude. Why is it that it is always easier to focus on what’s missing rather than what you have? Let me preface this post by telling you that I absolutely love Chicago & the friends that I have made here.  This move could have gone in a completely different direction. When I was in Chicago in Feb 2010, I put down a deposit on an apartment and ended up backing out. Something just didn’t feel right. Had I taken that place I would have missed out on 20+ friendships that I have made in my current building. These people have become such a big part of my life in Chicago.

  I cannot explain how much I love this little man.

He is the best dog in the world and he’s mine. Not sure how I got so lucky.

I left LA because I wanted to be in a great city with great people and found exactly what I was looking for in Chicago. It may be cold and I may think about flip flops & dresses multiple times a day, but I believe that the cold & gray days make you truly appreciate the warm & sunny ones. I am an LA girl who is looking forward to 60 degree weather. When the warm weather does arrive, I will be very grateful.

For the past few months I have thought a lot about my career and what my next step{s} should be. I haven’t really gone in to this on my blog but wanted to write about it for a few reasons. First of all, I know that someone going through the same thing may be able to relate to what I have to say. I also want to be able to look back on this and know that I figured it all out.

My BFF, C.

I am a fairly driven person {ok — total overachiever/perfectionist} which leaves me feeling like there are a million things I want to do there is not that one thing that I was prepared for. You go to med school and become a doctor or law school to become a lawyer. I majored in Sociology, so where does that leave me? Should I work for someone else or start a new venture on my own? If I work for someone else what should I do? I am at a crossroads. There are multiple paths that I could take and I am not entirely sure where to go.

The problem is that I think about this all the time.

Jess, my other BFF.
We haven’t lived in the same city for years but have managed to stay very close.

I have always been one of those people with ideas running through my mind all the time. I love my down time but feel like I always have something going on. Just look at me. Graphic design, photography & a scrapbook line. I like to dive in to everything. I {literally} came up with an idea over the weekend that I am really excited about. I often feel like I am the only person like this. I know that isn’t the case, but it can feel that way.

 My small apartment & my even smaller roommate.

I have come a very long way in the past year. I am grateful for Chicago, my home, my pup, friends, my business, my blog & all the good things in my life. I am grateful for the people that read my blog and leave comments every day. I do this because I enjoy it but getting to know all of you has been a bonus. My blog was also a huge factor in my move to Chicago. Had I not started this blog, I would probably still be in LA right now. You can read about that story here.

I love Chicago.

So what do I do? How do I figure this all out? No idea. People always ask if I would give up design/photography & the answer is no. It is such a big part of who I am but I am so ready for the next step. I just have to figure out what that one thing is and that isn’t easy. No one prepares you for the fact that you will have to figure these things out. Or no one prepared me for it. While some people have their careers all sorted out, I know there are so many others like me who aren’t quite sure of what they want to do.

For now I plan on making some lists and deciding on some next steps. I really want 2011 to be the year that I figure this out but at the same time know firsthand that these things do not always happen when you think they should. I wanted to move here last winter. Had things gone the way I thought I wanted them to, I would have missed out on so much more. 

Have you found your career? Do you think about what you should be doing with your life? What do you want for your future?
I do not expect answers to all of these questions. Just something to consider…